David just made me realise something unknowingly. my instructors treat us like idiots. As such, they have to give us idiot proof instructions, like saying things that are damn duh. for example,
"gentleman, many of you did not pass your tests. I.E. to say, many of you all failed. UN-DER-STAND??" -_-

anyway, im sick! Down with flu cough fever nausea and headache. dammit. i hafn been sick for such a long time la. So now i do not need to book in. I.E. to say, im skipping my test and parade tmr! yeah!! but sian la. now my clean sheet is scribbled on liao. sia la. and i was thinking this weekend since i did not make any plans i shd go out with my parents and spend some time with them.hafn done so for ages. well yes, in the end i did spend time with them-at the 24 hr clinic at tmc. -_-
but it is at times like this that you realise how much ur family care for you, esp your parents. they kept insisting that i go to the doc till i agreed. i was feeling sore all over and was not in a really amicable mood. once they had identified that i was really sick, i did not control myself anymore, and jus let go at them. i riased my voice qt a number of times over stupid things, because i was feeling really uncomfortable. they did not once scold me, or reprimanded me in any sort. even when i raised my voice at them, they just nodded and continued trying to make me feel better. deep down, i knew i was acting like the biggest moron on earth, and i was really seriously touched the way they fussed over me, even though i was already an adult. it was till the point that i felt embarrassed, but i was feeling really miserable and din give a damn anymore. never once did they complain, kept asking if i was well, and did not sleep thru the night, checking on me every now and then. when i was woken up by them, i shouted at them to not disturb me. i felt very bad, but my agony was taking a toll on me and i had already endured the whole afternoon while assuring them that i was ok. even just now, they did not dare to go out of the house, until i convinced them that i was ok and they could go out. even when going out for a meal, they called me a zillion times to ask me wad i wanted to eat and if i was feeling alright.

i saw something in this two days that i nv seemed to realise for the 19 years of my life. all along i had taken them for granted and was not appreciative of all that they had done. even sis is becoming damn nice to me. last week, she bought a durian ice cream for me even though she hated the smell of durian and she onli earned 12 bucks for her 3 hours of sai gang. i know its a little late to realise, but hey better late then never rite? some words i jus cant spit out of my golden mouth, but i hope that they understand how important they are to me.

wah tis is gay..nvm..